Being away form Jonathan is not an easy thing. It is probably the hardest thing that we ever had to go through but I do know that it has made our Love stronger.
People have been telling me that it will get easier but it is not getting any easier. Why would it get easier when the one you are going to spend the rest of your life with is in the middle of a war? There are a couple things that just keeps me going. One is the love we have for each other. Without this love there is no way that I would be about to make it through. I know that he loves me and wishes that he could be with me and talk to me everyday, just as I do. Another thing is my family and friends. They are always there when I am having a bad day. They cheer me up and keep me strong. The third thing is God. Without God there is no way that I would get through this. God is there to protect over him and bring him home safely to me. The fourth thing is that our wedding is closer then it has been so we are one step closer to spending the rest of our life together. This is the day that I cannot wait for.
I love him with everything I am, all I can, and everything God has allowed me. My love for him and his love for me is what gets us through the ups and downs of life. I will always be by his side and I will be waiting until he comes home and enjoying the rest of our life together
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Just to hear his voice...
When you love someone you want to spend every second with that person. Well, loving someone in the military you are not able to do that.
The last time I saw Jonathan was over a month ago. Some might say "Oh it has only been a month you still have eight more to go." But when you look at it from my side, that just means that it is one month closer then I was one month ago. The time being apart is hard and long. The days of no phone calls or Skyping keeps me wondering what is going on and how he is doing. What I would give to get to hear his voice just for a second to say Hi, I'm okay and I love and miss you" But I know that it cannot happen like that all the time. That is why I have his messages saved on my phone, his dog tags always around my neck, his teddy bear by my bed, and most of all him in my heart everyday of my life. This is what keeps me through the times that are so hard and long. I know he is always with me where ever I go because not a second goes by without him occupying my thoughts and my mind.
So in all...I guess I do have my one and only with me every second of the day. It might not be physically but mentally and spiritually he is there. He is what guides me through each and every day. He is what keeps me strong and protects me. He is my hero! I love him with all I am
Just hearing his voice would be...
A GIFT.
The last time I saw Jonathan was over a month ago. Some might say "Oh it has only been a month you still have eight more to go." But when you look at it from my side, that just means that it is one month closer then I was one month ago. The time being apart is hard and long. The days of no phone calls or Skyping keeps me wondering what is going on and how he is doing. What I would give to get to hear his voice just for a second to say Hi, I'm okay and I love and miss you" But I know that it cannot happen like that all the time. That is why I have his messages saved on my phone, his dog tags always around my neck, his teddy bear by my bed, and most of all him in my heart everyday of my life. This is what keeps me through the times that are so hard and long. I know he is always with me where ever I go because not a second goes by without him occupying my thoughts and my mind.
So in all...I guess I do have my one and only with me every second of the day. It might not be physically but mentally and spiritually he is there. He is what guides me through each and every day. He is what keeps me strong and protects me. He is my hero! I love him with all I am
Just hearing his voice would be...
A GIFT.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
This independence day...
How many times do we just think about holidays as just a time to party and not for what they truly mean? I know for the past two years, Independence Day has a deeper meaning to me.
Having a fiancé in the military is one of the most extraordinary things that I have ever experienced. It has helped me experience what my parents went through in Vietnam and what many other people go through each and every day of their lives with their wives, husbands, fiancés, girlfriends, and boyfriends who are serving this country.
Through the past year, I have been able to learn how to love on a completely different level. I am not always with my fiancé and do not get to talk to him every day, but I can always feel his love with me and that is what keeps me going through every day. I keep going on with my everyday life but not one second goes by without Jonathan going through my mind. I eagerly wait for the next phone call or and e-mail to say that we can Skype at a specific time. I have voice messages on my phone, so the days that are long and hard I can listen to his voice. Pictures of us together are all in a scrapbook to remember the time that we shared together. These are the things that I have to cherish and hold onto until his safe return back into my arms. I hold his Navy teddy bear every night and say a prayer every night for him to come home safely.
I found this quote and it is so true because Jonathan made me complete and I am thankful for who he is and all he has done. “I walk with my head up high and when someone asks…I will say with pride Yes I love a military man and would not have it any other way. I didn’t choose to fall in love with a military man. But God blessed me that way. He chose me to be different, to be outstanding, and to be a military fiance and wouldn’t have it any other way.
Independence Day is a day that everyone should remember people fought and gave up their lives for us to have all the freedoms we do have today. People are still out their fighting for us right now at this very moment. We should all thank them for all they do because they really give up a lot of themselves to make sure that this country is protected. These military men and women are heroes and often not really recognized for all the service they do for all of us. Next time you see someone in uniform walking by just say thank you… just maybe they will know that people do appreciate all that they do for us.
Having a fiancé in the military is one of the most extraordinary things that I have ever experienced. It has helped me experience what my parents went through in Vietnam and what many other people go through each and every day of their lives with their wives, husbands, fiancés, girlfriends, and boyfriends who are serving this country.
Through the past year, I have been able to learn how to love on a completely different level. I am not always with my fiancé and do not get to talk to him every day, but I can always feel his love with me and that is what keeps me going through every day. I keep going on with my everyday life but not one second goes by without Jonathan going through my mind. I eagerly wait for the next phone call or and e-mail to say that we can Skype at a specific time. I have voice messages on my phone, so the days that are long and hard I can listen to his voice. Pictures of us together are all in a scrapbook to remember the time that we shared together. These are the things that I have to cherish and hold onto until his safe return back into my arms. I hold his Navy teddy bear every night and say a prayer every night for him to come home safely.
I found this quote and it is so true because Jonathan made me complete and I am thankful for who he is and all he has done. “I walk with my head up high and when someone asks…I will say with pride Yes I love a military man and would not have it any other way. I didn’t choose to fall in love with a military man. But God blessed me that way. He chose me to be different, to be outstanding, and to be a military fiance and wouldn’t have it any other way.
Independence Day is a day that everyone should remember people fought and gave up their lives for us to have all the freedoms we do have today. People are still out their fighting for us right now at this very moment. We should all thank them for all they do because they really give up a lot of themselves to make sure that this country is protected. These military men and women are heroes and often not really recognized for all the service they do for all of us. Next time you see someone in uniform walking by just say thank you… just maybe they will know that people do appreciate all that they do for us.
And so it begins...
Jon received leave for one week before he was shipped over to Afghanistan. That one week was the fastest week ever.
The leave was split in half some being spent in New York and some in Ohio. We made the most of the time we were together and cherished every moment. During that time, it was as through I was flying on Cloud 9. We did everything that we normally did when we were together, such as go out to dinner, go to the movies, and go to the beach. My family all got together to wish Jon good luck and a safe return. The next day Jon's parents, Jon and I all went to Coney Island. We went on a ton of rides and had a total blast.
Then we all hopped on a plane and went to Ohio on Saturday. We went on Grandma's boat and spent time with the family. On Sunday, Jon's parents, Jon, and myself all went to church were they prayed over us for his deployment. After that, we were having a party for Jon for his family to wish him good luck and a safe return. Monday, we spent the day in Amish County and went to the Werner Museum. It was so cool! Then on Tuesday, I was a wreak. It was the last day I would be with him. We went to breakfast and to the park. We were just cherishing every moment that we had together. It was time to go to the airport. Never thought "see you later" was so hard to say until you stand at the gate and watch the one you love walk to the plane and know that you wont see them from 9 months.
And so...began the time without him. I knew that it was going to be a struggle but when he comes home it will be well worth every second we were apart because it will make the times we are together all the more perfect.
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